Back at square one

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It is one thing to break up with a person. It's another thing to actually get back to where you were before. The heartache can be a nerve-wrecking experience but to actually go back to same rut is another thing altogether.

So am I someone who doesn't believe in second chances? Not at all. But when second chances have been given, when demands have been made and when all expectations have been laid out and still without any development or changes, then there is no such thing as second chances. There shouldn't be any hope for change. There should just be plain acceptance.

What is to be accepted? That the relationship should not have taken place to begin with. That it was better to stay as friends, having the time of your life, no commitments, just good company with no strings attached. Sometimes we indulge too much with the thought of being in love and translate great friendships to be true love. We have to learn to guard our hearts to not be in love with the thought of being in love for us to be able to think well and discern what is in front of us.

If there is anything more excruciating than seeing someone get back to a not-so-great situation is the fact that loved ones are hurting as well. When family and friends get to see the picture in a larger frame, face-to-face with the loose ends of what seems to be the an endless heartbreaking dilemna. It is not about forgiveness, it is no longer about forgetting the past. It is dealing with reality and what lies ahead and seeing those bumps along the way that can only be seen by the eyes of those that are on the more objective side.

It is a never ending discussion. But I am not resting my case.

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Shout out!

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I am experiencing more ways than one to be heard. I am officially getting addicted to plurking and twitting. Although how I wish I can do this more often in a day but nevertheless I still post a few things before I sleep during the day. (READ: Working at night)

So which do I like best?Plurking or twitting? Both. Plurk actually leads me to realize how I am feeling at the moment: loves, likes, wishes, prays, hopes, and the list goes on. Twitting allows me to just say anyhting out loud while I see how my friends are doing. Its somehow a forum where people just holler or holler back. It's like group plurking I suppose.

I'm hoping to have more energy in getting to my laptop and connecting to the world bcause of these two new past times. That of course plus my blog.

Sweet!

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The celebrity in me

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Blog list

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Things to watch out for in the days to come:

1. Desserts and more. My top favorite sweet finds -- from ice creams, to cupcakes, to shakes.
2. Movie list 1. My all-time favorite movies
3. Movie list 2. Movies that I wouldn't want to miss on the big screen. Upcoming flicks for this year.
4. Gadgets and gizmos. Latest trends in technology. Probably have this in parts.

There. That's my to do list as well. See you around and comment on these topics when I finish them. Maybe we can exhcange list too!

Until then.

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My emotional weekend

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The weekend that passed by was not so good for me. It was emotionally tormenting that I felt my heart just shattered and the better part of me didn't even want to exert effort in picking up the pieces.

I will not even dare tell what happened and why I have been subjected to such an experience. But I believe it had to happen to finally (Yes, this is the final story to this issue) figure out what to do, to have all the cards laid down, to pinpoint the source of pain and literally burn it all down.

But it wasn't easy. I had to guard my heart for two days even if that meant sleeping with tears.

I cannot contain my hurt that I can feel a throbbing pain in my chest. All the more I did not even want to talk about it anymore and just wanted to move on after I have, seemingly, erased the whole event from my memory bank. Of course, it was far from happening.

So I had put it into writing. Pouring to my soul's content every detail that my poor heart is feeling. Setting expectations, demanding for what is mine in the first place. The result was a shirt-drenching experience, having to be face-to-face with bitterness and sadness all at the same time. The misunderstandings of where I am coming from versus what the other person is assuming all blended up to become this climatic scene which was won over by LOVE.

Yes. It was a happy ending. And I wouldn't want it any other way. We tore the old pages and started with a brand new sheet on this one, starting off from where I wanted to begin, learning each detail that I could possible know,and saying out loud my thoughts on everything else that has got to do with this not-so-good episode. Will it be different this time? It should be. Because I don't want to go through the same ordeal twice.

When everything else fails, LOVE is the answer.

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Missing

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I missed writing...so much. I can find time, but I honestly can't find the energy to get in front of my laptop to update my blog. Night shift is taking its toll. I can barely sleep well. My number of sleep has been reduced from 7 hours to 4 hours even if the airconditioning unit is on.

Moving on...

I am happy to share to the world that, thanks to my brother-in-law Nikki, our wireless router is now od use. We are now on wifi! Yeah! No longer limited due to cables. Such a nice way as I get myself back to the blogsphere.

So there...just for starters. Back again, hopefully.

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Miggy and Laida Part Two

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Yes. My husband and I somehow still found a way to watch the second team up of John Lloyd Cruz and Sarah Geronimo. Remembering how fun it was the first time they were paired up together was enough reason to actually see the sequel of their movie.

The sun dance was still there, the "Kailan" song was pretty much used up to brighten the couple's day, the ever wacky team was still complete (of course with their never ending punchlines). Add to those the "Bebe ko" message tone (which undoubtedly found it's way to the viewer's cellphones as well), the power hug, the 5-second kiss, and the "mas love kita" line of Laida.

Inspite of the kilig factors that was added to the movie, it wasn't as romantic as the first installment. I guess that's part of the deal when the dream comes to life. Laida's fairy tale was translated to reality which brought issues rather than the simple "kilig" factors. It was no longer about the prince charming saving the damsel in distress. It was about a couple figuring out how to keep the love no matter how hard things may seem. It showed people how wrong it is to give up your life entirely just to be with someone and how it is not helpful to not give up anything as well so that you may be with the one you love.

Confusing? More tricky I suppose. But that is how love is. You'd have to learn the game well for you to play it well and stay longer than all the other players. It's a winner take it all thing -- you and the one you love in a happy (almost) ever-after.

Should you watch it? Yeah, why not. Amidst the crisis, it's still one feel good movie that you can relate to. After all, it's always fun to remember how it is to be in love.